This Day (Project 52, Week 2)

I’m listening to Train’s “Hey, Soul Sister” over and over, and I’m not proud of this fact. It’s like a drug. Every time I think I’ve listened to it enough, I think, No! Once more! Even lyrics like “You’re so gangsta, I’m so thug, you’re the only one I’m dreaming of” don’t deter me from playing it again and again. (Those lyrics are damn sweet, right? Riiight.)

The singer’s voice is simply intoxicating. It massages my temporal lobe and puts me in good humor. I suppose that’s what pop songs are meant to do, but I’ve never been a follower of pop songs.  In fact, I think I may be a little bit of a snob regarding such things.

I should clarify my definition of pop song. I’m sure it’s like yours: catchy rhythm and melody, conventional structure, etc. But there’s one element that is more important than any other in my definition of pop: lyrics.  Modern songs that I identify as pop have lame lyrics.

This element is important enough to me that if a song has all the other elements of a pop song, but the lyrics are good, then it immediately rises above the genre of pop. I guess pop, in my mind, is a genre filled with forgettable music with lame lyrics.

Perhaps I take it too seriously. As I said at the start of the post, the song makes me feel good. Perhaps that is the only point to the plethora of pop songs that get cranked out of music studios every day; they aren’t all designed to leave some definitive mark on the history of music.

I was dwelling on the idea of lyrics today while driving to Champaign-Urbana, and listening to my ipod. I cranked up my Pink Floyd playlists, which I haven’t listened to in some time. I’ve always been such a fan of their songwriting; I like that they seldom focus on new love, or lost love, or women, or any predictable subject matter for their songs.  The song that comes closest to being a “love song” is probably “Wish You Were Here,” and, from what I understand, it was written about Syd Barrett and his drifting into schizophrenia.

Anyway, I listened to “When The Tigers Broke Free” on the drive. The first time I heard this song was when I watched “The Wall” as a teenager. It wasn’t included on that album of the same name, unfortunately, so I was thrilled when it came out on the compilation cd “Echoes.” The lyrics to the song have always made an impression on me:

It was just before dawn
One miserable morning in black ‘forty four.
When the forward commander
Was told to sit tight
When he asked that his men be withdrawn.
And the Generals gave thanks
As the other ranks held back
The enemy tanks for a while.
And the Anzio bridgehead
Was held for the price
Of a few hundred ordinary lives.

And kind old King George
Sent Mother a note
When he heard that father was gone.
It was, I recall,
In the form of a scroll,
With gold leaf and all.
And I found it one day
In a drawer of old photographs, hidden away.
And my eyes still grow damp to remember
His Majesty signed
With his own rubber stamp.

It was dark all around.
There was frost in the ground
When the tigers broke free.
And no one survived
From the Royal Fusiliers Company C.
They were all left behind,
Most of them dead,
The rest of them dying.
And that’s how the High Command
Took my daddy from me.

It’s a song about the death of Waters’ father, yet it avoids pathos and sentimentality (in my humble opinion). It’s more a sardonic critique of the war machine.  I’ve just always been impressed with the way Waters put this song together. He would have lesser success in some of his later, more political and didactic songs (tho I don’t mind some of them), but this one just hits the mark for me.

Pink Floyd isn’t exactly pop music of course, but I think their work set the benchmark for what I consider good lyrics and good (musical) story telling.

As I get older though, I find myself bopping along to catchy tunes and thinking, “This is the stupidest song I’ve heard all day, but I like it!”

And that’s fun too.

Here’s a picture taken with a pinhole lens on my camera:

New Day, New Year, New Challenge (Project 52, Week 1)

This is the first day of my participation in Project 52. One post a week for the rest of the year. Sounds reasonable. I’m taking the easy way out for this first post of 2010: a Q and A about 2009.

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Defended my MFA thesis. Helped with a dog c-section and animal x-rays.

2. Did you keep your New Years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I don’t really make resolutions, but this year I resolve to send out some nonfiction to the various journals I read.

3. How will you be spending New Year’s Eve?
We watched the Soloist and then live streaming of the NY festivities at midnight (eastern time). We went to bed after the ball dropped in NY, even though it wasn’t midnight in our neck of the woods.

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year, thankfully.

5. What countries did you visit?
None, sorry to say.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More travel! A little more money!

7. What date from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
I suppose the date of my thesis defense, tho I don’t remember the exact date. It was in March. Also, the date I was finally offered a writing gig with the local university.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year? Receiving my MFA and finally being offered a writing/editing job with my local university. Getting a freelancing gig with the newspaper.

9. What was your biggest failure?
Not getting anything published in journals (because I didn’t send anything out. Fail.)

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
A dog bit my thumb. It hurt like hell. And I was scared of rabies. Because I’m a hypochondriac about such things.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
My new Canon EOS Rebel. My new plastic lenses for the Canon. Some really fab jewelry from Etsy.

12. Where did most of your money go? To the monthly bills.

13. What song will always remind you of 2009? Probably “Walk it Out.”

14. What do you wish you’d done more of? Traveling

15. What do you wish you’d done less of? Fretting

16. What were your favorite TV programs? Project Runway, The Office, Community, 30 Rock (Thursday night TV)

Those days are over though because we’ve disconnected our cable.

17. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year? I’m not big on hating.

18. Who were the people you were closest to this year? My mom, stepdad, and Spence.

19. What was your greatest musical discovery? Well, it was a video of Walk it Out set to the smooth movements of  a 70’s dance trio. It rocked my socks, but the youtube video has been disabled, so I can’t share it. Also, the Fireman.

20. What were your favorite films of this year? It doesn’t seem like I saw many. I liked the Serious Man.

21. What did you do on your birthday? Dinner with Spence.

22. What kept you sane? Reading, writing, Spence, mom, Sgt. Pepper.

23. Who did you miss? Lots of the Florida folks.

24. Who was the best new person you met? Lyndsey!

25. What things are you looking forward to in 2010? Travel, writing, taking pictures, hanging with people I dig.

(Meme stolen from Lyria.)

This day

My black cat, the one who ignores us 98% of the day, always picks the most inopportune time to get some kitty loving. Always when my hands are dealing with other things, and when my patience is short and quickly made shorter with her incessant meowing. And then, when I drop my hand to pet her, she bobs and weaves around my fingers, sniffing the tips and choosing which part of her body she’ll rub against them. I’ll allow you to pet the right side of my face, she seems to say, and as soon as I cross into unapproved territory, she quickly pulls her head out of my reach. It’s a little annoying. But then I feel guilty because the other animals get smothered in love and embraces.

We’ve had our first random sparrow death of the winter. This happened a few times last year; I would find dead or ailing birds outside of my house. There didn’t appear to be anything wrong with them, except they were dead. Some found their way into our garage and died in there too. It was distressing. We’ve blocked all access to the garage (they were crawling in through an opening left between the garage door and the cement floor), so we haven’t had to deal with birds in the garage. Whenever Sgt. Pepper and I go out the front door for our walk, she always runs to particular section of the house and sniffs around. I noticed there was an opening of sorts in that vicinity, so I wonder if there are rodents (or birds?) living there. Just now, about 15 minutes ago, I heard some scraping and scratching going on somewhere that was not quite inside, but not quite outside either. Maybe underneath? Maybe something crawling and living in the in-between area of our house’s insides and outsides? I think I heard it again.

It’s not you, it’s me

This line has been occurring between me and some of the books I’ve been trying to read lately. For the past year, my approach to reading has been if a book doesn’t have my complete attention by the 2nd or 3rd chapter, I’m putting it aside and reading something else. I don’t have time to dawdle, folks, and there are a lot of books I want to read (and a lot of magazines, journals, and newspapers, too).

Sometimes I decide I’ll come back to the book at another time; perhaps I’m not in the right mood for it. One example happened earlier this year with, “The Life of Pi.” I tried to read it quite a while ago, while I was still in grad school, and was so utterly unimpressed that I put it aside, and didn’t consider it again. When I saw it on my shelf earlier this year, I thought I’d give it another try, and I enjoyed it very much. The difference between the first try and the second, I don’t know. But I’m glad I revisited it.

I also seem to have attention deficit disorder regarding books. Right now I having the following strewn about the house, each at various levels of completion: Richard Wright’s “Black Boy,” W.E.B. Dubois’ “The Souls of Black Folk,” Philip Lopate’s “Notes on Sontag,” Fyodor Doestevsky’s “Crime and Punishment,” Anthony Burgess’ “Mouthful of Air,” the “2009 Best American Essays” edited by Mary Oliver, and Elizabeth Hawes’ “Camus: A Romance.” I have yet to finish any, though I’m making quick progress on “Crime and Punishment” and “Black Boy.” However, the Camus biography is from the library, which means I read it with the stopwatch ticking because I’ll have to return it soon. Yet, I find myself not craving the book, not looking forward to picking it up each night. I find myself already wondering if I should return it for something else. But have I even given it a chance? I don’t know. It came with glowing reviews, and I’m interested in the subject. One moment I’m engrossed in the story, and the next I can hardly keep my eyes open. Maybe I’m expecting too much from biography? I don’t know; I’ve read some others that I could hardly put down.

Then there’s the notion that maybe I should just trudge through. I’ve taken it from the library, and now I must read it, and that’s that. I know of many people who read works they don’t particularly end up liking, simply because they started them and felt compelled to finish what they started. I admire this approach very much.

However, I’m not convinced this is the approach for me. I’m not a terribly fast reader, so if I were reading something not enjoyable, I think my progress would slow to molasses. Also, if I were hit by a bus and killed at this time, and I had spent the last days of my life reading some thing that gave me little enjoyment, well, I’d be really pissed. But, I’d be dead, too, so…never mind.

With 2010 moments away, and numerous books on my To Read list, I wonder whether I should kick off the new year making the effort to finish what I start, or continue with the “it’s not you, it’s me,” approach and hightailing a book I find uninteresting back to the library drop box. Am I doing myself a disservice by not pushing my way through its pages?

Where I’ve been

Well, right here, actually. Working and writing and reading. At the start of next week I should have some very good news to share. I’ll refrain from spilling the beans now for fear of jinxing it.

I’ve designed my first logo! One of the doctors from the vet clinic where I work asked me if I’d be willing to make a new one for them. I received help from a co-worker with better drawing skills than my own. I told her I was having trouble with the logo; I could see it in my mind’s eye, but I wasn’t able to translate it on to paper. I explained the idea to her and she offered to try and draw it. I was thrilled. I gave her the picture I was using as my inspiration (a picture of Paul the cat), told her how I wanted it to look, and within a few hours, she gave me the drawing. I scanned it into the computer and used Photoshop to pimp it out. I’m pretty happy with the final product. When it debuts on the website, I’ll link to it here.